This is a sketchbook I finished last year. Should I keep it?
In 2013, I threw out 15 years' worth of diaries/journals and ~10 years of personal sketchbooks. I decided that carrying 20lbs of past around with you is dumb, and sacrificed them to the god of the trash chute. I remember posting about my liberation in a Minimalist facebook group. My post received an overwhelming response of horror, disbelief, and... my favorite... a chorus of middle aged women saying "you should have kept a few to share with your kids later on."
Okay, listen up. 1) I am in a committed relationship with the next 20 years of my life. 2) There was nothing in these books that I want to look at again, much less show to the imaginary kids I'm not going to have.
I have been throwing out my books since.
I know I should want to keep them, but I don't.
Okay, so I've kept three sketchbooks from college. Two are reference books containing class notes and demonstrations, the third is a moleskine I took to Italy when I studied abroad.
I don't think I need to explain why I don't hold onto journals. Or maybe I do, since aspiring minimalists were shocked that I chucked 'em. I use journaling as a tool to resolve problems, and I can't think of one single good reason to dedicate space in my home to a list of things that bothered me last year. My pre-2013 sketchbooks, barring the college stuff, were more or less a diary of low-lights. Raise your hand if you draw when you're sad. Keep it raised if looking at those drawings afterward makes you sad.
As part of my minimalist journey, I made a commitment that I won't hold onto objects with negative associations, including artwork. I've seen a lot of benefit from this. Basically, you feel better overall if your home isn't a gallery of negative associations. Even if you don't consciously realize that the stuff in your house is affecting you emotionally, it is.
Which brings me to this. I used this sketchbook from 2013-2015. I can't decide if I want to keep it or not. There are some nice breakthrough drawings in here that I care about, like my boats, but there is also some personal content I'd rather be without.
I'm never going to be one of those artists who has a massive floor to ceiling bookcase full of old sketchbooks lined up neatly with dates on the spines. I don't think it's necessary to keep every single drawing I do. My old drawings are not irreplaceable, like a lot of people believe. I can do another drawing. In fact, I intend to.
Maybe I'll keep it for now. My first boat drawings are in here, and it will be the only past sketchbook I have that isn't school related.
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